The other day I was preparing for an outdoor concert with a friend. I donned my sexy pink wellies, jeans and a pink rain coat, my hair was the ‘just got out of bed look’ tousled and wavy and I had no make up on apart from some tinted moisturiser.
I went to wait at the bus stop for a bus to town and as I arrived an older gent was eyeing me up. I stood behind him uncomfortably away from his wandering eyes, but he looked back at me and sparked up conversation about the buses. I was friendly towards him. He asked where I was going, and then suggested walking further down the road to get the choice of 4 buses rather than just the two from where we were standing. I don’t frequent buses so this was news to me. I walked down with him and he comented that I was getting some admiring glances from cars passing by. He didn’t really ask anything about me until we got on the bus and he sat next to me. He asked if I was single and when I said I was he did a character analysis about me based on our brief conversation about buses and how I looked and it went like this ….
‘You look like a free spirit. I reckon you never stay in one place for a long time. I think you like to travel. You look really independent. I bet you don’t want to settle down and have kids.’
I was horrified that this was the impression I was giving with my none made up face and pink wellies.
It occurred to me that one of the reasons I am single is because I may be giving off the wrong vibes! So what do I have to do to look like I want to settle down? Dye my hair brown and start dressing frumpily? Lol 
I am independent but I have to be because I am single. However I’d love to be with someone and feel looked after and cared for.
It occurred to me that I do get stereo typed with the boobs and blond hair. However I never dress tartily, and only wear full make up if I am going out in the town for a night on the tiles – which isn’t often nowadays! I’m quite a contridiction to this stereo type, but I like how I look and I’m not changing that for anyone!
Posted by Bea at 05:14
that’s an interesting reaction
the fact is, you are a girly sex kitten looker… and youre lifestyle suggests you had worked with that… but you clearly have a lot more to you in your intelligence, perceptiveness and ambitions… but you also learnede a lot through your escorting
you may have felt trapped in a circle of how you look, act even, and the kinds of men you met?…
in changing your career, you perhaps should (not that i pretend to be some great wise adviser) look at how you could find a different persona to project, and as you mix in different circles, maybe you will meet someone who can love you for your whole, deeper self.. i dunno
this by the way is not an attempt at a come on by me, i am just exploring communicating with people online who i find intersting…
you were right in your other response to me
i am quite comfortable in my skin, never had problems getting girlfriends etc..
so i am enjoying talking to women whose life is different to my experience.
all the best
m